23/10

Today I had a presentation for Tolya on why Ivanov commits sucide and despite some bumbs in the road, one of my partners was unable to make the presentation, it went really well. We had an interesting conversation about the nature of sucide and the selfishness and selflessness. I focused on his realtionship with his to be second wife and I found myself inpassioned with the story and his choice. After we presented we had a discussion in which evryone in the class was engaged. Thats what I love about this group of people, they truly care about this experince and why a single chararter in all of literature would commit suicide. There are not alot of places where this would be true besides here.

My comfort level in acting has sky-rocketed. Today my teacher told me that my etude today was moving which is huge because usually they are calling me out for not connecting and not being in the moment and being selfconsious. I'm sure that my performances won't all be brilliant but I am going to start trying different characters and taking larger risks. This was a huge step for me and now I'm on the next flight of stairs. I have found a temporary peace with in myslef. After all the termoil of being peeled like an onion I'm feeling comfortable in my own skin... for the moment.

In general the language barrier is still up all though its a little better and the culture shock has completely evaporated. My stomche is still having some problems but luckly it hasn't gotten in the way of my work. My shoulders are still bugging me but I feel the muscle building and I just need to keep working hard. I have started adding my own personal work out in addition to what we do in class and walking to try to increase my musle mass. I think that is all to tell. Tomorrow we have an earlier morning then usual but we are going to see one of my acting teachers in a show tomorrow night. I can't wait to see what he can really do.
Love
Kirsten