11/10

"Actions are the best tanslations of peoples thoughts."
"We are writing extrodanary moments of peoples lives."
"Stage is being emotionally stable naked."
"Acting is Reacting"
-Alex

I, and to some extent we as a group, have been struggling with these pricipals. As the layers of our innerworkings are being peeled back and we are being reveled to eachother and eventually an audience we are learning about ourselves. A true internal glance is so rare but eachday I'm being forced to look at myself as an individual person and to be truely honest it is confusing. It will be interesting to see the person I push myself to be. Right now my struggle is to take everything inside my head and push it out on stage which is invigoravting. To say simply that I am happy or sad or frustrated does not explain anything what I feel but know that I feel like I'm fulling my dreams if you pardon the cliche however difficult it may be.

Part of the difficulty for me is physical. My body itself is very strong from how hard I have worked this summer but my arms are so weak and each class is making things more painful but the muscle is starting to come back. Our movement class on friday was almost all arms which was a test for myself how hard I could work. Natasha asked me a few times to take it easy but I really pushed myself and payed for it later. I can feel though that my work is being rewarded.

Yesterday beside acting we had a tour of the MXT museum. Each time I find out more about the history of MXT i'm more in awe of what an honnor it is for me to be here. They have done some of the most important productions and movements in theater history in the very buildings that I walk in and out of so casually. It was so neat to see how important theater is in how they have preseved so much of it here. They have every sketch, diagram, mock up, costume, funiture prop and even dressing rooms and offices of famous productions and shows. I had a friend who took pictures of it all so when I get them from her I will try to poast a few. We always talked about theater history and all these places that important events have occured but never did I think that I would be studying in one of the most important, becoming a part of its history myself.

I love you all and miss you!!!!
Kirsten